So today, I feel demotivated a lot about myself. I wanna get in that sinking feeling like freddie's song melancholy blues. This occupation, this life has really took it's toll on me (hasn't it?) or it's just me that cannot show gratitude to God. Well I guess I'm kinda left too far on the race from my peers.. Imagine that you are in a motoGP race, you ride your motorbike too slowly. You are far left behind from your old friends. It's 25 and I still got lot more to do. This kinda hard earned pay occupation, with my boss that kinda pushing me too far to finish my duty to corp without giving me appreciation, or they kinda pretend or forgot about it?
That's the sad part... so I guess at least I still have a thought that writing could make everything feels better, at least for my own sake.
Well, but not all of my life filled with bad part of course, some are good. I don't know where this will lead too, or when it will last, but one think for sure that I'm gonna try to put best effort so that it won't break my life, my dreams, but it can give myself some plus side and advantages..
